stay true.

qwinz and omglolstfuvic, thanks for following! (:

Tue, 02 Nov 2010 11:40:42 -0400

Thoughts Without a Thinker

Sat, 23 Oct 2010 15:16:43 -0400

Thoughts Without a Thinker :

Follow my personal blog? Help me out a little bit, please? (:

So I know it's kinda awkward, me following you. But I love your blog! It's amazing (:

Sat, 23 Oct 2010 15:12:14 -0400

Lol not a problem, and thank you. (:

Me: Do you love me?

Thu, 21 Oct 2010 00:39:07 -0400

Me: Do you love me?
You: I guess so. You're the closest thing I've ever had to a girlfriend.
Me: But you're still leaving me...
You: I'm not leaving you, just that shithole.

Thoughts Without a Thinker

Wed, 20 Oct 2010 18:45:34 -0400

Thoughts Without a Thinker :

A new blog as an assignment, let’s see how it goes.

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Tue, 19 Oct 2010 00:15:00 -0400

smileee: I’ve been working hard so long, Seems like pay has...

Sun, 17 Oct 2010 18:49:21 -0400

smileee:

I’ve been working hard so long,
Seems like pay has been my only friend.
My fragile heart’s been done so wrong,
I wondered if I’d ever heal again.

Oh, just like all the seasons never stay the same,
All around me I can feel a change..

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me,
Leave the past behind me, today my life begins.
A whole new world is waiting, it’s mine for the taking,
I know I can make it, today my life begins.

You’re my best friend, tonight you proved that to me. I love you.

Sat, 09 Oct 2010 02:51:45 -0400

You’re my best friend, tonight you proved that to me. I love you.

"I have no words for this. You simply scare the shit out of me."

Sun, 26 Sep 2010 13:05:49 -0400

“I have no words for this. You simply scare the shit out of me.”

"She had fallen in love so many times that she began to suspect she was not falling in love at all,..."

Thu, 23 Sep 2010 12:32:46 -0400

“She had fallen in love so many times that she began to suspect she was not falling in love at all, but doing something much more ordinary.”

- Jonathan Safran Foer, Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close

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Wed, 22 Sep 2010 23:47:12 -0400

"I just wanted you to know that I still love you. You were my very best friend before I even knew I..."

Tue, 21 Sep 2010 12:51:17 -0400

“I just wanted you to know that I still love you. You were my very best friend before I even knew I truly excisted.”

Our psychological state allows us to see only what we...

Mon, 20 Sep 2010 00:49:57 -0400

Our psychological state allows us to see only what we want/need/feel to see at a particular time.

what five words do you see?

Past, secret, lust, malice, bail

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Mon, 20 Sep 2010 00:33:08 -0400

"It’s time to move on even though I’m not ready. I’ve got to be strong and trust..."

Mon, 20 Sep 2010 00:19:49 -0400

“It’s time to move on even though I’m not ready. I’ve got to be strong and trust where you’re headed.”

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Tue, 24 Aug 2010 12:51:49 -0400

"It’s not that I don’t love you, because part of me always will, but I have to go out..."

Fri, 13 Aug 2010 02:10:00 -0400

“It’s not that I don’t love you, because part of me always will, but I have to go out into the world and find what I’m looking for. And if at the end of the day, it all leads me back to you, then at least I learned that you and I were meant to be together from the very beginning.”

- self.

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Wed, 04 Aug 2010 03:25:53 -0400

Dear Mom,

Wed, 04 Aug 2010 03:18:19 -0400

Someday I hope that you stumble upon this.

I know that now you think the worst of me. And to be honest, I don’t blame you because I have done some shady things in the past. I have done what it takes for a mother to completely mistrust her child; so in the end, the blame is on me. In the end, after a year and a half of trying to make up for my mistakes and show you that I have changed, when you doubt me, it is still my fault.

I know that today I broke curfew because - surprise - I was working. And you know, maybe I have neglected my home life, but hey, to be honest, there was not much to neglect, considering that even in the same house, we don’t really spend time together. You tell me that it’s my fault because I sleep a lot when I’m not at work, but when was the last time you slept a short amount of time after working an eight shift about five times a week? And when was the last time we actually spent time together even after I was awake? You playing your games on the computer while I have breakfast watching t.v. hardly counts.

But tonight it was truly my fault. I stayed late to fulfill my responsibilities at work and “forgot” about you, thinking that you would understand that sometimes you have to do what you need to do. And even more I thought you would understand because at one point, I was the one waiting for you to come home, or to even come out of your office as I sat in the waiting room drawing with your secretary, because, well you were at work. But yeah, working because you have mouths to feed and working because you worry that your sixty-six year old dad who works 50-60 hours a week and your diabetic mother may need your help at some point in the financial department, are definitely not the same thing…

Today I found out something. I found that my motivation to get out of this house will be you. Now don’t get me wrong, I don’t mean you you. I mean your way of looking at me and always thinking the worst of me no matter the situation. And honestly mom, I’m sorry. I’m sorry for every mistake I made that made you “see” that I’m a bad person, because even though you say you don’t think the worst of me, in your words, “your attitude says it all.”

But Mom, honestly, as tired as you are, I’m tired too. I’m tired of trying to please everyone, I’m tired more than anything, of trying to please you…because no matter what, I have realized that nothing I do will ever be good enough.

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Mon, 02 Aug 2010 01:00:44 -0400